Smoke Damage (smokedamage) wrote,
Smoke Damage

Smashed thumb today at cricket. Hurts like a motherfucker. Am very doubtful for the game on the weekend. Bent the nail back about halfway along the thumb, on the fourth ball I faced. Blood in the glove and stormed off to the petrol station – there’s my temper.

My temper is a source of drama for me, I can get very angry very quickly. I think that it’s one of the things that I like about myself. It’s good to have it, it’s a motivator, and so long as you can control it it’s ok.

“The Secret Life of Us” character, Kelly, learnt that in a relationship that it’s the differences, the push me-pull you of a relationship that really makes it work. “The grit in the oyster” is how Alex explains it to her. Without it, you can’t have a pearl.

Kiska and I are like that all the time. Both have horribly bad tempers.

I can’t work on Murray’s project. I don’t love it, and he does not trust me. And unless I have one of those things I don’t think I can be bothered. I trust implicitly and if I cannot get that back it’s not fair, and I probably shouldn’t be working the project. Hm. Questionable. Do I not want to do it because I have been refused? I don’t think so, it may involve some arrogance – I’ve been there, I’ve made films so listen to me.

I don’t think that I want to do it. And I think that is the most important thing. And that he does not trust me certainly does not make me any more keen at all.
Tags: bitching, filmmaking
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.